Out For A While

I haven't posted in a while, and it may be a while before I post again. My mom died suddenly last week. Although she had Alzheimer's, see was physically healthy, and this blindsided us all. I'm still so stunned I can hardly think. No matter how old you are, I guess you aren't ever ready to lose your mother. I've been on funeral leave for the last week and a half, and I go back to work on Saturday. I don't know if I'm ready. I'm finding it hard to get motivated.

The day she died, after I was given the news, I went to my room, got out my container of fabrics, my rotary cutter and mat, and went to work. I cut 2,125 2 1/2 inch squares, and 513 triangles. I'm about a quarter of the way through sewing this quilt top. It seems to help. While she never made a quilt, she did tell me stories of cutting out patches with her mother. I've knitted a bit, too, but not a lot. Just a sock. I can't concentrate too much on a sweater right now.

Monday night, I noticed one of our cats seemed a bit thin. I picked her up and realized with a sinking feeling she was dehydrated, even though she was drinking water. Off to the vets the next day for a checkup, which revealed non-functioning kidneys. So, I have to have her euthanized tomorrow. I can't believe this. I feel so numb right now.

I could not even post tonight that to Blogger and their fucking "new Blogger". What a giant pain in the ass. I don't have a Google account. I don't WANT a Google account. I'm thinking of moving my blog to typepad, but fuckin' google would not even let me access my blog to move it unless, you guessed it, I opened a goddam google account. It pissed me off even more that I could not access the blogger help without a google account. I am absolutely clueless why this is supposed to be terrific, as one of the blooger employees was gushing about in a post, telling us that some of us were "lucky" enough to be chosen (read: forced) to move our blogs. I can't tell you how thrilled I am to be so lucky.

Ill be back eventually. I don't know if it'll be here or at typepad. I have to go check it out when I have the energy.